i have hit a low point in my life. things have sucked before but wow, everything seriously is hitting all at once.
1) my mom kept talking about how we were all going to move (all is me her and her boyfriend) and we were all looking for houses and i was off almost every sunday so thats usually when we went to look at the houses. now she is too busy or does not feel like it. and they both have stopped looking for new houses to go look at. i talked to my sister about it today and she told me they don't want to move until i get accepted to Wash. U. so that they can move far enough away that i have to live in the dorms or get an apartment. there is no way that i can go to school full time and afford and apartment. for a shitty ass apartment anywhere near school is at least 500$ a month plus food and electric and gas and everything else you have to pay. sadly here in st. louis even if you rent the apartment you have to pay your electric and shit it is not included in your monthly rent. not to mention gas for my car and a cell phone and internet to do my school work and insurance for that piece of shit that i have to get fixed every month. so i am getting kicked out at the end of the school year and i make about $300 a month. good fucking luck to me
2) my car is breaking so often i have already put more money into fixing it than i did when i bought it. and if i sold it. i would get about 1000 dollars from it. how can i save up for a new car when i spend 200 on gas a month and prices are going up. and i am expected to get my own apartment soon. i am afraid i have to drop out of college for year or so and work full time to be able to make enough money to get a car that will run and find an apartment to live in. oh wait.. if i am not in school my mom will kick me out right away so then i won't have anywhere to live. love it
3) my work is so messed up. ever since we switched management at my store everything have been fucked up. balinda the store manager is not doing her job at all. so we all have to pick up her slack. plus she is rude to the customers so we all had to go to classes we didn't get paid for being at to learn how to treat customers. danielle the assistant store manager is waaay too young to have that job. she does not follow the rules and just to make my life suck... we hate each other. she makes the schedual so i get like ten hours a week and they are the worst shifts that everyone hates to work. and i get stuck with all the pulls and all of the re prices so that i can't be on the register. not why would she not want her best customer service representative checking people out'?? because it shows everyone else that she sucks and can't do her job right. and without being on the register i can't sell anything so i never ever meet my goals and i get a pretty little write up. and last but def. not least we have mindy. mindy is a four star csr which is one step ahead of me. and she is pregnant so she will be going on leave soon. they want to train me to do her job while she is gone. which will give me a raise so i should be happy right??? well im not because after her six week leave she will come back and i will be demoted back to my reg. suck ass job. and at bbv it is a rule that if a reg. mod (manager on duty, store manager ass. store manager or either of the two shift leads) can not work a shift then and only then can the four star act as an mod. so explain to me why mindy opens (mod job!!!) mon, tues, wed, and thurs, this week when zach a shift lead can open mon, wed, and the ass. store manager and can open tues. and thurs. and a four star has a max. of 25 hours a week. but mindy has 40 schedualed thsi week. and is taking on the my shifts on satuday with out asking??? why do i have to fix everyones mistakes there and do everything they are supposed to do?? and finally why can no one put games back in the drawer right?? its alphabetical order you fucking idiots.
4) i am doing poorly in school because people in my life keep dying so i have to miss class to go to the funeral or go to slu and donate their body and my cold hearted teachers won't let me make up the work!!
and although i can not see the future it does not seem very bright. things are def. going to get worse. and i dont think i know how to handle that.